More Than Enough

They said that I was very lucky..........

August 15th, 2012
Hari itu nggak jauh beda sama hari sebelumnya. Layaknya pelajar yang lagi menikmati indahnya kasur, gue nggak beranjak dari situ.
Rutinitas sama, ya itu itu aja. But I should admit, that night was different.
Malem itu, entah kenapa twitter di hape lagi error. Jadi gue berusaha ngotak-ngatik macam anak sycomm. Oke ini nggak penting.
Pas gue lagi ribet sendiri ngotak-ngatik ubers dan tfb, LED biru muda nyala, suprisingly. Reflek, gue diem. Sekitar 1 detik kemudian, muncul crunch sms di layar hape gue. He texted me.
Awalnya, itu bukan sms yang penting. Dan jujur, itu unexpected banget secara gue kira nggak bakal ada komunikasi apa apa lagi.
Theeeen, dengan muka setengah excited tapi jaim, mencoba menanggapi sms yang sebenernya nggak penting itu. After some messages, suasana mencair dengan sendirinya. He told me about everything he did a few weeks ago.
Nggak cuma itu. Next, we talked about future. And somehow it's like he gave me a clue that he would stay by my side in the next couple years. Be honest, i wish it was right.
Rasanya udah lama banget nggak ngerasain itu. Ya, in the last six months exactly.
Terus, kita lanjut cerita tentang segala hal. Garis bawahi, segala hal. That was cute, but all that cute stuffs make me miss him more than ever. Gue nggak terlalu excited, karna harus sadar kalo sekarang konteks nya udah 'berbeda'.
So, i decided to talk like nothing happened. Supaya doi juga comfort untuk cerita lagi.

I just can't believe that last night we just talked like nothing happened. And I was so grateful. Lalu, saat itu, gue membatin............... This is more than enough.

They said that I was lucky. It makes me wonder......... If I'm lucky enough to always have you here, Am i lucky enough to HAVE YOU BACK?
I don't know, I just put my hope up. I wish that i could fix it all. But I just can't.

God is good. He gives me a chance to not really get left out and I promised myself to not waste my time, no more.

Dear you, whenever you need someone to talk to, please remember that you always have me. Though we're not as close as we used to be, I won't leave, literally.
Because.......... I do love you, until longer than forever.

Thanks for that night :)